11/500 MISSING PIECE TO MY LIFE FOUND.

After all of those years for me searching for those missing pieces, I finally got advice from someone and this is what they told me:

For now just focus on fixing YOU and lifting your own weight before you can lift someone else’s weight. Focus on your education, not girls, and it will happen. Try harder than ever. You’re on campus for an education.

What was said above was close to what this person told me as I was walking around campus today. It’s not EXACT to what this person told me however it appears amazingly that the missing piece WAS there all along. Must’ve been in front of me all this time that’s for sure!

I guess the missing piece was known as not happiness, not love, not even confidence and motivation, but something known as FIX. Hopefully you guys get what I mean cause I know exactly what I’m doing this weekend!

Even if the worst get’s in my way, let’s make something GRAND.

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Guy Punches a Couple on Bus For No Reason

This was literally one of the craziest things I’ve ever seen in my life.

Here’s the story:

I was riding the bus when this guy came on board and went to the back of the bus after paying. As I was heading home on the bus, I started to hear some hissing sounds as if there was a can making that noise.

Turns out that this guy had something. Something EXTREMELY BAD because once I heard something drop from him, he goes up to a couple that was sitting on the bus, tells them something, and then PUNCHES the couple for no reason, causing the strike to happen on the girl.

I didn’t see the actual punch but now during last night the girl has a bloody nose a little bit. After the guy who was with the girl questioned why the guy who got up did that, he said,” I didn’t know my spot.” Something like that but I can’t remember. Eventually he got off the bus and then started to walk to another building that was close by.

A few minutes later, the police arrived to the scene and I THINK there was somebody with muscle and size that was with them but I wasn’t sure. Someone was asking me if I got a picture or even a VIDEO of the scene and I unfortunately didn’t because this was completely random and unexpected for all of us, even for myself and the driver. Basically everyone.

Good news though is that the guy with muscle found the person that made the punch towards the couple. After everything’s been resolved, I was looking back at them and it appeared that this guy had some cans of some sort. I had no idea what they were.

Why did I make this post though? One thing I can think off the top of my head: I’M NOT STUPID. I’m NOT one of these people that happens to smoke, do drugs, drinks, or even has a can of whatever stuff. Even though I have autism along with some other things, I’m smart. Smart enough to say that I would NEVER do stuff like that.

Moral of the story is this: Don’t be stupid cause being stupid makes your life dead and much worse.

If you enjoyed reading this post, be sure to share it and even follow me when you can! But also remember that posts like this ARE NOT common as I don’t experience stuff like this usually.

More to come soon! Sorry I didn’t post for a while!

 

Identity Revealed: KDS and the Two Sides

WRITTEN ON AUGUST 11th, 2016

Do you ever get a feeling where you’ve done something so repetitively that you just can’t take it and become so frustrated? This is exactly what I’m feeling right now, but at a kind of extreme scale. I just don’t know how else I can be able to withstand life itself anymore. It’s bad enough that we had to move from one house to another but let me tell you this: It’s not getting better.

As I was typing my possible 100th post on WordPress, I was feeling that everything just wasn’t working for me anymore. I’ve tired everything to stay happy but of course something ALWAYS has to ruin it. I just don’t get it anymore. Why is it that everything bad has to happen to me when I’m already stressed, tired, exhausted, unhappy, sad, angry, and even hateful enough? I just don’t get it anymore.

It was bad enough that I wanted a girlfriend so badly in my life but there’s so no way I’m getting one for a long time, perhaps ever. It’s because everyone just doesn’t want to help me or even think that I DO exist. It just doesn’t make any sense. It used to when I was a kid where everything was free of stress and all those other feelings described in this post. Now a days, things have been so much more complicated.

There is only one thing I wish could happen now. It is a miracle. A miracle where I finally get what I always wanted: that significant other even though something tells me that I don’t need one yet but look at how lonely I’ve become. I don’t have as many, if all, friends that I used to have when I was younger. I didn’t need to worry about my autism as much back then. I didn’t even need to worry about meeting other people as well.

But you know what? Here’s an upside for this post: These days, I tend to become a social butterfly. I have much more confidence to speak publicly than before. My talents have gotten so much better than when I was a kid. I even have made 100 posts and counting on my blog KDS.

There are some things that I DO have that happen to be bright. Music, writing, even being an advocate for autism are all things that happen to be on the bright side. Maybe what’s happening is that I’m thinking about too many dark things in life itself. Perhaps I should replace it with the positive. The question is how?

I honestly wouldn’t know the answer to this question as described above but I KNOW it is possible. It will probably take time.

And do you know when I wrote this post but haven’t posted it till post 100? It’s when I was assembling the rest of my trampoline but gotten so frustrated that I was reminded of how sucky life was for me. But you know what? My happiness WILL come back hopefully.

My name is Kalin and there’s still hope left for me to turn the tables around. Darkness is nothing but a big bully. I say…

LET’S GET RID OF THIS BULLY.