Think of a butterfly. Now think of it as if it’s carrying a kind of mood that I’m feeling. Now think of me catching the butterfly and capturing the moment of how it was feeling. This is exactly what I’ve been trying to do and I thought of it just now: Catching the times I’m always moody. It may sound easy at first but as life goes on it can get very tricky, especially since I’ve been trying to journal while being moody.
This is why I should always journal no matter what mood I’m in. It will reveal what the meaning of a journal is. Without meaning, life is basically pointless. Hard to think about it these days don’t you think?
Now hopefully this week won’t be as bad as I thought it would be for the most part because it’s not starting off good. Can’t seem to get started on some projects or continue with them, including with this album I was working on called Mastermind Reloaded. I just can’t make music anymore. Turns out that it’s just an extra hobby of mine.
The main one though may be writing. I’m not positive yet.
Holy cow! How did I write all of this text in the last couple of minutes? I must be pretty good with journal I say. I just need to remember to keep posting those entries onto my WordPress Blog so the entire world can see what I’ve been trying to do.
Man this is a big pain in the butt because I was keeping track of how may posts I’ve written before hitting 500 posts. I think I need to stop that mainly because all it’s doing is adding up more stress towards my life as I’m already stressed out enough. Luckily though, I still have a chance to keep going through all these obstacles.
Let’s do this then: I’m going to stop putting that number (i.e. 234/500) in my posts because all it’s doing is adding more stress to both me and the blog itself. Instead I will STOP counting how many posts and total views I’ve had since day one of the blog. I really need to stop looking at those stats of mine because all it’s doing is that it’s not making me focus that well in ANYTHING.
Maybe that’s why I’m always worked up for everything. I look at the big picture way too much! Perhaps what I should do is focus on smaller pictures that make up the big one which I hopefully can do. Also as I go on with this journal, I also must not look at the word count too much or I will start to get startled by it. Like as of now, I’m looking at it and it’s distracting me since it’s already at 4 digits.
What is going on with me again? I’m really distracted. Maybe I should take a break for sure now and post the previous entry onto my blog right now!