So Many So Called “Start Overs”

Man I’ve been not having it for who knows how long now.

I’ve been trying again and again and doing it over again and again for some of my projects I’ve been working on. All I can say is that the recipe for disaster is just waiting to happen even though it may have already happened to be honest.

I don’t know how many attempts I’ve made to get going with some projects that failed or nearly failed on me. Perhaps I’ve made too many to count! But in all seriousness it has all come down to this: The MAIN typed up journal I will be working on now will happen to be called “Blog of Difference”, which is what I’ve been doing all along. Journaling about my life experiences without me knowing that I’ve already done it.

I’m hoping that this nonfiction series will, I mean WILL become successful because this will be the biggest pain in the neck to do the first book for this. If I can’t do this, who knows if I’ll ever be able to keep going with, well, anything!

I still even need to write my articles for the Millionaire’s Digest Magazine. Opps!

What is YOUR biggest dream?

A post that I’m making that is kind of unusual.

But before I ask the question let me tell you guys something! If you haven’t known, I’m someone with autism who is striving towards becoming someone that will make history while having this learning difference! It may seem very overrated to do something like that but is it possible? YES.

This is what this blog is all about. It’s really all about who I am and the craziness of me! It is also like a second OR third journal that I’m currently doing as well! That’s it! What I’ll do is make a book that contains every single blog post I’ve ever done! But before I can do that I need to make even more posts!

Now for the question I want to ask you guys: What is YOUR biggest dream in your life?

Feel free to comment what it is! Don’t be afraid!

I made a BIG mistake…DANG!

So here’s what happened on the latest article I published on The Millionaire’s Digest.

Someone commented on my post and I figured that it’s true…I’m the biggest idiot ever because I let my imagination go too far this time! What was I thinking???

Maybe what I should’ve done was something in a different category because this was probably my longest yet my worst post of all time ever! Hopefully the CEO of the Millionaire’s Digest understands. I have no idea.

And you know what else? I can’t think of anything else to say! HA!

I screwed up this week! Updates!

Man I’m really having it these days because I really wanted to become friends with the new classmates of mine in the transitions program I’m in! Just one problem: I can’t remember their names so I can’t find them on FaceBook! Why didn’t I ask…?

I won’t see them again until Friday earliest so waiting is going to be the biggest pain ever that’s what! I know this blog post may be off topic for what I’m doing currently but this is what my everyday life is kind of. It’s a real pain in the neck that’s for sure!

At least the good news though is that I might be in the magazine for the Millionaire’s Digest! How cool is that? Now I’ll be able to get more known than ever!

Hopefully I’ll be able to finish up the articles I’ve been working on for the magazine very soon cause the deadline is approaching very fast!

I’m also hoping to get those classmates contact info on Friday so I can concentrate on my stuff again. Will I though? Let’s hope that I do!

Have Got to Continue

I had my meet and greet for my transitions program today and I had so much motivational energy I just couldn’t keep myself still physically. The problem is that I have no idea if I will ever be able to make something grand in my life because of so many problems that have been happening with me even for today.

At least the good news is that I DO have my motivation back which is good! Now it’s a matter to keep on going no matter what happens because if I do, something WILL happen for once.

What I’m also hoping too is that I can finish my journal that I’ve been working on. I think I’m on day 6 I believe? I honestly don’t know.

Man I can’t think straight and I don’t know why. Maybe I need sleep.

Interesting…

I know the title sounds very vague. But guess what? The title I choose for this post is like that because that’s the very first comment EVER on YouTube in a YouTube video!

You know what else is interesting? All this time I’ve been blogging and I reached up to 100+ posts! Man I should edit the “about page” for my site! Another thing is that the biggest creation I’ve ever done was an OLD version of Zeon which happened to be up to 20,000+ words!

Sadly though, that version didn’t work out because of plot failure. At least it wasn’t a crud shoot or whatever you call it!

But anyways if you find my posts interesting, be sure to follow me and to like and comment on my posts!

Let’s see if we can keep on adding up the stats on this blog!

A Motivational Speech from Someone with Autism

We all have our tough times. I happened to go through a heck amount of them. I was looking through my Facebook news feed for a moment and something hit me. It was as if I finally wanted to do something where people can finally see who I am. To get exposed. To get known. To reveal even the craziness of me. To get out of the box. To get out there and be myself. Most importantly though: to attempt, to try, and to believe. I never knew that a moment would hit me like this. I was always hoping for something to happen that would spark something in my life. Apparently, it’s happening as this status was written, where I was feeling a little different than usual. So I guess you can say that I’m NOT a freak but rather a history maker, a friend, a blogger, a musician, a writer, and most importantly a warrior. Who am I though? I’m someone with autism that will eventually make history and to inspire others to keep going with their dreams. Not only for others but for myself too. I know that I can change something for the better in my life if I wanted to and I WILL. I know I will. If you’re still reading this, good for you because you’re getting inspired by someone with autism. With all being said, there’s only one thing I want to say now: I’LL MAKE AN ATTEMPT FOR THE BETTER.

-Written by the creator of KDS

101 Posts

I want to congratulate myself for reaching 100+ posts! BUT remember you guys that this is only the beginning of a never ending journey!

Now what I need to do is keep going with the major projects I’ve been working on. I think you may know what they are at this point depending if you check this blog often and if you followed me.

The school year will start soon so I might post less frequently depending how busy I get! Hopefully that won’t happen because I’m really trying to push my limits for putting myself out there!

Any ideas on how to get known even more for not only my blog but myself as well? Any advice will help!

Identity Revealed: KDS and the Two Sides

WRITTEN ON AUGUST 11th, 2016

Do you ever get a feeling where you’ve done something so repetitively that you just can’t take it and become so frustrated? This is exactly what I’m feeling right now, but at a kind of extreme scale. I just don’t know how else I can be able to withstand life itself anymore. It’s bad enough that we had to move from one house to another but let me tell you this: It’s not getting better.

As I was typing my possible 100th post on WordPress, I was feeling that everything just wasn’t working for me anymore. I’ve tired everything to stay happy but of course something ALWAYS has to ruin it. I just don’t get it anymore. Why is it that everything bad has to happen to me when I’m already stressed, tired, exhausted, unhappy, sad, angry, and even hateful enough? I just don’t get it anymore.

It was bad enough that I wanted a girlfriend so badly in my life but there’s so no way I’m getting one for a long time, perhaps ever. It’s because everyone just doesn’t want to help me or even think that I DO exist. It just doesn’t make any sense. It used to when I was a kid where everything was free of stress and all those other feelings described in this post. Now a days, things have been so much more complicated.

There is only one thing I wish could happen now. It is a miracle. A miracle where I finally get what I always wanted: that significant other even though something tells me that I don’t need one yet but look at how lonely I’ve become. I don’t have as many, if all, friends that I used to have when I was younger. I didn’t need to worry about my autism as much back then. I didn’t even need to worry about meeting other people as well.

But you know what? Here’s an upside for this post: These days, I tend to become a social butterfly. I have much more confidence to speak publicly than before. My talents have gotten so much better than when I was a kid. I even have made 100 posts and counting on my blog KDS.

There are some things that I DO have that happen to be bright. Music, writing, even being an advocate for autism are all things that happen to be on the bright side. Maybe what’s happening is that I’m thinking about too many dark things in life itself. Perhaps I should replace it with the positive. The question is how?

I honestly wouldn’t know the answer to this question as described above but I KNOW it is possible. It will probably take time.

And do you know when I wrote this post but haven’t posted it till post 100? It’s when I was assembling the rest of my trampoline but gotten so frustrated that I was reminded of how sucky life was for me. But you know what? My happiness WILL come back hopefully.

My name is Kalin and there’s still hope left for me to turn the tables around. Darkness is nothing but a big bully. I say…

LET’S GET RID OF THIS BULLY.

3 is a Magic Number for my Views…

It’s so weird every time I make a post because I feel like that every time I make one, I happen to get an instant 3 views, which is good don’t get me wrong! I wonder who those three are.

What I’m going to do since this is the last ever post number containing double digits is that the new category WILL come today since I’ll be having triple digits of my total posts from this point on!

Hopefully you guys will enjoy this category. And for my previous post I know I might’ve gotten a little personal there but hopefully you guys get me because all these things I’m doing in life can be very stressful you know!

Be prepared as the first post of truth is coming today!