From a handwritten journal by KDS.
From a handwritten journal by KDS.
Today should be interesting since I’m going to the circus for the first time ever in my life. Only problem is that I might not enjoy it but heck with it! I’m going to see what it really is like there since it is an opportunity for me after all, maybe even with meeting someone new there too.
Last night was literally my worst nightmare as for the first time ever, I felt like as if I was garbage, waiting to be drifted away. In fact, I was the most upset ever since for a while during that time yesterday. Literally felt like that things weren’t going to get better. But you know what happened? Even though I released some of that pain I was having to one of my friends, she actually was ABLE to handle it, one of the few people I’ve ever met where they did know what to do. Those kinds of people are very rare because most people wouldn’t know what to do when I become someone like that. All they would do is make the problem worse by spreading it to others in a concerning way.
I wish my life wasn’t like that but at least I’m more careful now these days.
The big question still remains: What will get my happiness back AND balanced? It may seem like it’s there now, which it is don’t get me wrong! But is it balanced? Currently it’s not. I wish it was so I can keep going with even this journal of mine but things just get too hard these days sometimes. At least I don’t give up on what I’m doing that’s for sure!
I need to stop. Kind of hungry now!
I’m presenting a new journal that I’m doing that will be available for EVERYONE to see for free on my blog called A LIFE TO WRITE. It will be about what everyday life is like while having autism, presented in a day by day journal format.
Now you’re probably wondering why I didn’t think of something like this earlier. Well it’s because of all these problems I’ve been having (Like always) along with not having enough time to do something like this. But guess what? I’m going to try my very best to do something where all of you guys can see what my potential could really be.
This book will be available on my blog starting TODAY. Everyday, expect a new entry to come. I will also start a new category where it contains EVERYTHING that is involved with A Life To Write.
I’ll be honest that this will be a big pain for me to do on my blog but it will be worth it at the end in the long run.
Keep checking out my blog for more exciting posts, old and new!
Wish me luck on this “pain in the butt” task!
As I continue to write on my blog, I’m noticing that I’m kind of running out of ideas currently. Maybe what I should do is do some online searches on how to get those ideas back.
Or another thing I can do is look back at previous blog posts I’ve written and see if anything there sparks up ideas for me. I know that they’re there! They are just hidden somewhere and I don’t know if I’ll be able to find them. Maybe if the universe will reveal to me the answers to some of my questions I have in life.
HA! See what I did there? I recalled an idea from one of my recent blog posts! That’s if you’ve been keeping up with my posts and all that!
I also wonder if not only this experiment but also this article I saw would actually work. I’ll need to look it up again and perhaps share it with you guys. I don’t know! Now I’m just making up stuff…again!
At least for the most part I’m better now! Yay! Now what I need to do is to keep going with, well, everything!
Yesterday was great…cause I finally started the new journal that I told you guys about!
Remember that I’m NO LONGER doing a handwritten journal mainly because it would be so complicated I just wouldn’t know what I can do. I’m still doing a journal where it will be handwritten but only thing is that it won’t be published for that particular one.
But for this typed journal I’m doing, I will try my very best to get as many entries AND days in as I possibly can before it gets published! The minimum days I’m aiming for is 165 days. Hopefully I WILL get there this time cause if I don’t I will be frustrated!
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