A LIFE TO WRITE CHAPTER 1 ENTRY 5

11-8-2016

Entry 5

 

What was I thinking? Not journal for some time and here I am typing away? What was going on with me? Falling behind on everything. Not again!

 

It’s been a couple of hours now since I last wrote in my journal A Life to Write and my brain is fried from doing all of this math. Yes. I’m in a math class that couldn’t get any harder than this since I’m average in that class currently. I’m hoping that the test retake I’m going to do will happen to be a better grade than what happened before which was where I happen to be border line failing. It was something like a D- or something but I know I can do better than that!

I’m also hoping to meet up with this friend of mine at 2PM as well. This friend is from my math class BUT I just remembered that she has a class at 2:30PM! No! How could I forget that? Can’t believe myself. And I thought a movie about my life told in a strange way was going to work but apparently not!

Frustrated and frustrated with everything. Have got to meet more new people these days. Only problem with doing that is my confidence along with me making the first move. Very hard these days. Too hard to even describe how I feel when I try to do stuff like that.

Yeah I’m too frustrated currently so I’ll stop journaling for now.

Hopefully nothing bad will happen in the future as I’ve already been through enough.

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A LIFE TO WRITE CHAPTER 1 ENTRY 4

10-20-2016

Entry 4

 

Today should be interesting since I’m going to the circus for the first time ever in my life. Only problem is that I might not enjoy it but heck with it! I’m going to see what it really is like there since it is an opportunity for me after all, maybe even with meeting someone new there too.

Last night was literally my worst nightmare as for the first time ever, I felt like as if I was garbage, waiting to be drifted away. In fact, I was the most upset ever since for a while during that time yesterday. Literally felt like that things weren’t going to get better. But you know what happened? Even though I released some of that pain I was having to one of my friends, she actually was ABLE to handle it, one of the few people I’ve ever met where they did know what to do. Those kinds of people are very rare because most people wouldn’t know what to do when I become someone like that. All they would do is make the problem worse by spreading it to others in a concerning way.

I wish my life wasn’t like that but at least I’m more careful now these days.

The big question still remains: What will get my happiness back AND balanced? It may seem like it’s there now, which it is don’t get me wrong! But is it balanced? Currently it’s not. I wish it was so I can keep going with even this journal of mine but things just get too hard these days sometimes. At least I don’t give up on what I’m doing that’s for sure!

I need to stop. Kind of hungry now!

A Life to Write and UPDATES on stuff!

Hey guys! I’m really sorry that I haven’t be able to keep you guys updated with my journal A Life to Write mainly because I’ve been so busy/lazy that I just didn’t have the time or energy to get going on this journal.

I will try my very best to get back on track for what I’m trying to do as I MIGHT make a book movie based on this journal. I just don’t know yet! Still working on if this will be possible or not!

Also I might as well take a break from Zeon (Again right?) mainly because my creative spirit is starting to drain away from me. Hopefully my spirit for creativity WILL come back since I really want to do something awesome in life, mainly something grand!

Not only that but also be on the lookout for a NEW single coming soon from me that happens to be a remake of one of my best songs Mastermind! However it will ONLY be available on CD Baby since it’s an EXCLUSIVE song!

Wish me luck you guys! Stumping here these days!

Haven’t written for so long…

Man I feel so bad for you guys since I have not written for quite a while now. The only way I’ll ever get attention is if I DO keep on going. In fact today was pretty bad mainly because of me having an EXTREME meltdown but it’s been resolved to the point where I can blog again.

I wish I had my own show of some sort because I saw on TV for a second that there’s this famous advocate that speaks to MANY people (1,000s+ IN PERSON) that has his own TV show. I have no idea how he’s gotten up to that point but I know that sometime someday, I will get there.

Not only that but I just remembered a non fiction series that I was writing that I really should continue to write and that’s my series “A Life to Write”. It’s possibly the only series where I DON’T need a copyright for because it’s just a journal of my life basically. If it was a fictional book or a different type of nonfiction, that’s a different story.

But anyways, at least I WILL be back on my feet hopefully because ever since I started to blog again I gained OVER 20 followers (From July 2016 to November 2016)! And that was just from writing blog posts. In fact shout out to someone that followed my blog recently!

Okay enough said. I’m going to see if any blog posts interest me so I can follow them finally…HA!

ZEON: THE SERIES (A GRAND KDS Creation)

What’s up guys? You are looking at a picture that happens to be the OFFICIAL logo for my fictional series ZEON!

The reason why I decided to write this series for who knows how long now is because it is not only to explore how crazy my imagination can get but also because I want to do something in life that will not only inspire myself but inspire others too.

The way this series will work is like a TV show so don’t expect all the books in this series to be novel length. They will most likely be about 20,000-35,000 words each so it’s still being determined. But what about the so called ZEONIC EPICS? THAT right there is a TBA as I’m still working on getting the first book done.

If you want to find out what the so called Zeonic Epics are, follow my blog and stay informed! The only way I will reveal to you guys what those epics would be is only if I keep getting requests from you guys to know what they are! BUT if I do reach to the end of the first volume, then I will reveal what they are!

All depends on what will happen in the future!

ZEON: THE SERIES. First book coming soon!

***AVAILABLE IN EBOOK FORMAT ONLY.***

Keep Going

I’ve attempted so many times. Too many to count for everything that I’ve tried to do. I even need to start typing slower too because that’s one of the reasons why I tend to give up easily.

But anyways, there’s something important that I must always remember and that is to keep going. Literally keep going no matter what gets in the way. If it’s just writing or even just working on something that will pay off in the long run like a blog for example, don’t stop. Even I myself need to keep saying that so I don’t give up on what I’m doing.

It can be a hard yet challenging process but I really need to get going on what I want to do in life, especially for my series Zeon which could turn into a full blown TV show before you know it. Of course it would be in book form STILL silly me!

But anyways, just keep going and your dreams will someday come true. It is a very hard process even for me but once we keep going, then it will all pay off after going through the sourness before going through the sweetness. Just like the saying from Sour Patch Kids,” First they’re sour. Then they’re sweet.”

JUST KEEP GOING.

I discovered WHAT??? Zodiac Sign Describes KDS COMPLETELY

Wow is all I can say because I was looking at my zodiac sign for my birthday thanks to a friend and let me tell you that it was pretty much accurate for describing who I am. I happened to be Aries. Better remember that now that’s for sure!

What I found out about this sign is that Aries happens to be in a rhythmic existence. What I also found out is that it is full of creativity, one of the career choices is writing, and I even saw that I like to be the CENTER FOR ATTENTION! How crazy is that???

Now since I know what my Zodiac sign is thanks to my friend, I can now unlock possibly the secrets to discover who I am and even who my soulmate could be too! It looks like I’ve been given a key to opening the gates that will lead to a new realm.

Even though last night was extremely difficult for me, I still got through it. The only thing I can hope for now as I continue on through life is to see where luck REALLY is.