101 Posts

I want to congratulate myself for reaching 100+ posts! BUT remember you guys that this is only the beginning of a never ending journey!

Now what I need to do is keep going with the major projects I’ve been working on. I think you may know what they are at this point depending if you check this blog often and if you followed me.

The school year will start soon so I might post less frequently depending how busy I get! Hopefully that won’t happen because I’m really trying to push my limits for putting myself out there!

Any ideas on how to get known even more for not only my blog but myself as well? Any advice will help!

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Identity Revealed: KDS and the Two Sides

WRITTEN ON AUGUST 11th, 2016

Do you ever get a feeling where you’ve done something so repetitively that you just can’t take it and become so frustrated? This is exactly what I’m feeling right now, but at a kind of extreme scale. I just don’t know how else I can be able to withstand life itself anymore. It’s bad enough that we had to move from one house to another but let me tell you this: It’s not getting better.

As I was typing my possible 100th post on WordPress, I was feeling that everything just wasn’t working for me anymore. I’ve tired everything to stay happy but of course something ALWAYS has to ruin it. I just don’t get it anymore. Why is it that everything bad has to happen to me when I’m already stressed, tired, exhausted, unhappy, sad, angry, and even hateful enough? I just don’t get it anymore.

It was bad enough that I wanted a girlfriend so badly in my life but there’s so no way I’m getting one for a long time, perhaps ever. It’s because everyone just doesn’t want to help me or even think that I DO exist. It just doesn’t make any sense. It used to when I was a kid where everything was free of stress and all those other feelings described in this post. Now a days, things have been so much more complicated.

There is only one thing I wish could happen now. It is a miracle. A miracle where I finally get what I always wanted: that significant other even though something tells me that I don’t need one yet but look at how lonely I’ve become. I don’t have as many, if all, friends that I used to have when I was younger. I didn’t need to worry about my autism as much back then. I didn’t even need to worry about meeting other people as well.

But you know what? Here’s an upside for this post: These days, I tend to become a social butterfly. I have much more confidence to speak publicly than before. My talents have gotten so much better than when I was a kid. I even have made 100 posts and counting on my blog KDS.

There are some things that I DO have that happen to be bright. Music, writing, even being an advocate for autism are all things that happen to be on the bright side. Maybe what’s happening is that I’m thinking about too many dark things in life itself. Perhaps I should replace it with the positive. The question is how?

I honestly wouldn’t know the answer to this question as described above but I KNOW it is possible. It will probably take time.

And do you know when I wrote this post but haven’t posted it till post 100? It’s when I was assembling the rest of my trampoline but gotten so frustrated that I was reminded of how sucky life was for me. But you know what? My happiness WILL come back hopefully.

My name is Kalin and there’s still hope left for me to turn the tables around. Darkness is nothing but a big bully. I say…

LET’S GET RID OF THIS BULLY.

3 is a Magic Number for my Views…

It’s so weird every time I make a post because I feel like that every time I make one, I happen to get an instant 3 views, which is good don’t get me wrong! I wonder who those three are.

What I’m going to do since this is the last ever post number containing double digits is that the new category WILL come today since I’ll be having triple digits of my total posts from this point on!

Hopefully you guys will enjoy this category. And for my previous post I know I might’ve gotten a little personal there but hopefully you guys get me because all these things I’m doing in life can be very stressful you know!

Be prepared as the first post of truth is coming today!

“The One”? I don’t know?

So I’m at my mom’s job right now and there is definitely an opportunity for me to find out if “the one” is here meaning that someones daughter is here right now. She is about my age but I have no idea if she is it. It could be but I don’t know?

This was a problem I’ve always been having which is me looking for a significant other. It’s been with me for OVER FIVE YEARS. This information in this post I’m typing up right now WILL be included inside this typed journal I’m currently working on.

I’m also trying my very best to keep going with Zeon as well but it’s been tough because of too many things going on in my life. Even though I may seem chill, I’m really not on the inside. Like yesterday for example since I made a mistake for my transitions program.

If you enjoy my posts though, be sure to follow me and like my posts! Everything adds up as time goes by! That’s why the total views on my site is there so you can see how far I’ve came since the beginning of this blog!

I’m hoping though that “the one” IS closer than I think. I just don’t know for now.

Smoother? I don’t know.

Things are starting to settle for now.

My move is almost complete but I’m not sure what I’ll do when the pod gets transported from the old house to the new house. I also remembered that after this post I only have TWO posts left before my 100th post! How cool is that?

If you enjoy reading my blog, be sure to follow me and like my posts along with viewing as many posts as you can that were made by me! Everything you guys do WILL add up so be sure to keep it up!

I also managed to reach 10,000+ video views on my YouTube Channel KDS Official as well! I think I might make a special video to celebrate but I’m not sure yet.

I’m hoping that I’ll be able to start doing big things in the future. Autism is a true challenge for me and possibly everyone affected by it too. Can I overcome it though? YES.

Won’t make the goal but will keep going!

It looks like that I was a little too ambitious again today.

I won’t be able to make it to 10+ posts in one day. It’s probably because I’m having some trouble getting my words out of my head into reality. The good news though is that I happen to be getting a little more attention than most days.

As of right now, I really should journal inside this typed journal that I’m currently working on. Hopefully things will flow better once I get going with everything, especially since in less than two weeks the school year starts again.

Once school starts though, it will be time for me to start making history!

I’m hoping that I will have enough confidence to even say hi to some new people too!

This New Journal

Yesterday was great…cause I finally started the new journal that I told you guys about!

Remember that I’m NO LONGER doing a handwritten journal mainly because it would be so complicated I just wouldn’t know what I can do. I’m still doing a journal where it will be handwritten but only thing is that it won’t be published for that particular one.

But for this typed journal I’m doing, I will try my very best to get as many entries AND days in as I possibly can before it gets published! The minimum days I’m aiming for is 165 days. Hopefully I WILL get there this time cause if I don’t I will be frustrated!

If you guys enjoy my posts that I’ve been writing, be sure to follow me and like my posts! Always look forward to see my stats climb up as time goes on throughout my life!